Todays post will make little sense but just all the thoughts running through my head in no particular order..i'll call it a rant and off chesting of sorts..
There are times in our lives when we do not know how to react to people. When they say things to you that are so mean and hurtful you in one of those rare moments in life fall silent waiting.. hoping.. that they will realize what they just said to you and see how assholish it actually sounded.
But sadly no, most times they don't. It's not even 10am and already I have experienced this today. Someone said something to me by all accounts hurt me to the core and yet kept talking like they'd said nothing wrong.. How does one respond?
I used to be a person that would call people out on thier bullshit quite promptly but after years of having my displeasure turned back on me I have given up, I say nothing and keep it in.. that is until I get on the phone with Sheila, THEN and only then do I get to say whats going on in my mind to a person who I know never judges me, never thinks I'm over reacting and even if she does she points it out in a way that is not condescending or hurtful. She listens to me and I her.
This is why she is my best friend.
I notice over many years friendships change. People take others for granted, expect them to take whatever you dish out and continue on your merry way.
Last week I removed 56 people off my facebook. Why? Well quite simply this.. I dont need to see a friends list compiled of 400 friends to make me feel like i have friends. What I rather is a list of 99 and of them 20 I talk to and the rest I enjoy seeing what they post.
I dont know how anyone can keep up with the goings on of that many people and not be emotionally and mentally exausted after reading it all, not to mention you may miss out on the stuff that matters to someone who matters cause you are caught up in a million daily posts.
I have found this to be true. I have posted things that were incredibly important and yet, overlooked.
Then people wonder why they dont know whats going on.
Electronic overload..
If people spent half as much time with thier kids as they do on thier phones, computers, tv etc.. we may have more well rounded children.
I know my girls are on thier electronics alot but it irks me to no end to see mothers and fathers of young children with thier hands on those beloved phones non stop..more than the average teenager..thats brutal.. who is really that important that you cannot put the damn thing down?
I sometimes see this and want to say "hey! You, mom/dad, why dont you shut your phone off and enjoy your children you claim to love so much instead of texting away like theres no tomorrow. Those people can wait, your kids will be grown soon.
Now on to trust..
You ever feel like you have people you cannot trust? Like every word you say to them is shared with someone else. When you text them you feel like actually saying hi to the person you are sure is being shown your messages just for the shock factor of, yeah I know you are showing it to them..You can figure this out easily because the other person cannot keep stuff to themselves and randomly out of the blue starts talking about a subject you were talking to someone else about..
Those are ah-ha moments. When you realize even though they swore that your conversation was just between you that it was shared. It truly makes you pull back from the original person and tell them very little.. unless of course you want it shared.
This happened to me for awhile I would talk to one person about something and then low and behold someone they know would try to bring up a subject similar to it..the next day or two days later.. huh. Next topic of conversation, im not playing that game. This doesnt sit well with noseys.. when you wont engage.
Kids: I love my kids but lately here they drive me crazy.. the fighting non stop, the back talk, and general messiness of their rooms is driving me to drink.
All the while I am listening to what all I can do and should do for them when they cant do one simple tyhing like pick up a damn plate... I'm going to go on strike in awhile here and see what happens while I am not able to do what I do everyday. THEN they will figure it out.
Well, now my coffee is empty and I need another and got to get to doing what I'm supposed to be doing.
